He guessed that he'd never really cried like this before. Because he really didn't quite seem to notice the way he shook. He didn't actually make much sound beyond hitching, but he went boneless in Dirk's grip and cried for everything he was worth. It took him a long time to be able to inhale and not immediately shudder a sob to where he could actually talk.

"I don't-- I don't even know what to do," he admitted. "I wasn't prepared for-- for this, I can't, Dirk-- I can't--"