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He about choked on his mouthful of food.

"No, thank you," he said, shaking his head yet again. "I'm just glad you're healthy." Welp, this was getting sort of intimate in a romantic way. He shifted his hand and pat Dirk's thigh for a moment before going back to his food.

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He finished his food in near-complete silence, not-quite frowning at his bowl as he emptied it. He bit his lower lip for a minute, glancing up at Dirk finally, his eyebrows sort of knitting together in thought. He frowned back at the table and then reached over to take Dirk's hand, not looking at him.

This was getting really hard to ignore.

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That, at least, made Jake laugh. Dirk was so awkward but brazenly confident simultaneously. It made his stomach do funny little excited flips, and he squeezed the blonde's hand.

"Let me clean up the kitchen," he said quietly, standing up to collect their dishes. He leaned over and pecked the corner of Dirk's mouth, chastely.

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They had been dancing around this for something like two months, now. It had started off well enough, Jake had a brief crisis early on but then he'd just fallen into a sort of groove that he and Dirk were close friends and also had sex on a pretty regular basis. He knew he'd never quite grown out of the definite torch he carried for the blonde, but friendship with benefits... He supposed was still acceptable. He rinsed out their bowls and wandered back to Dirk, taking his hands and kissing him again.

"Hi," he offered.

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Jake was honestly just scared to be the one to bring it up. He didn't know if he could quite handle pushing Dirk away by having ~feelings~ for him. He turned his head a little to deepen the kiss, channeling his feelings into a raw sort of desire as he aimed to plainly devour Dirk's mouth.

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His breath caught, and he let himself be lead by the hands, biting at Dirk's lower lip. He didn't care how it made him seem, he was very abruptly really, really into this. His hands tightened in Dirk's.

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His breath was already a little ragged, and he trailed kisses sloppily all over Dirk's mouth, shifting so that his hands were in Dirk's still, but their hands were joined and raised, so that when they got close enough to the couch Jake could bump Dirk onto it and knock him to sit, crouching over him and pinning him against the cushions.

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Jake stopped, swallowed, and hovered with his lips parted just barely touching Dirk's skin to look at him. He had to go nearly cross-eyed to do so from how close they were. He moved his head forward, not-quite kissing him a handful of times, just sort of breathing against his skin.

"Dirk," he said, voice barely above a whisper. He shifted to straddle the blonde's waist, keeping their hands twined and putting their lips together, but not kissing, just sharing breath.

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He closed his eyes over against a sudden, startling prickling sensation in his eyes. Wow, what? He hadn't actually cried in years, what was even going on. He pursed his lips together and then pressed them into Dirk's, roughly.

"No," he answered after a moment, scooting forward to press their hips together. "I just want to touch you."

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He moved away, stayed settled in Dirk's lap the way he was, but instead of touching him like he'd said he wanted to, he just... Sort of wilted forward into him. His face pressed into Dirk's collarbone and he took careful, calculated breaths. He was freaking out.

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"I know," he breathed. He nodded. Jade was playing a good part in his upset, but it... He shook his head almost immediately afterward, sitting back to give Dirk a sort of plaintive expression. "But what about when she isn't?" He looked... pretty plainly frightened, really. He looked young, scared... Tired. He looked away from Dirk's eyes almost as soon as he'd met them.

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He drew in a shaking breath and sat back on his haunches, massaging at his temples in an attempt to calm himself down.

"God," He brought his hands down his face and slid his fingers under his glasses, lifting them as he just buried his face in his hands. "I'm ruining this, I'm sorry," he shook his head.

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He was fucking in love with him.

"No," he whined, and he hated that it was a whine but at least it wasn't a sob. Not yet, at least. "Dirk, please, stop," He tried to pull away a little, but there was hardly any force to it. He hurt, and he was scared, and he was fucking in love with one of three friends he had in the world.

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